1 00:00:08,810 --> 00:00:08,120 okay so 900 million billion nine anyway 2 00:00:13,730 --> 00:00:08,820 right 3 00:00:15,770 --> 00:00:13,740 so we are going to start talking about 4 00:00:17,810 --> 00:00:15,780 my experience - can it man have ended of 5 00:00:23,509 --> 00:00:17,820 disjointed what about to chip in some of 6 00:00:26,060 --> 00:00:23,519 them - because my weights kind of like 7 00:00:29,080 --> 00:00:26,070 wrapped up in it it's almost like we've 8 00:00:32,870 --> 00:00:29,090 been given little snippets yeah and and 9 00:00:38,840 --> 00:00:32,880 like just we're talking to you jump into 10 00:00:41,479 --> 00:00:38,850 another one when I figured stuff out I 11 00:00:45,400 --> 00:00:41,489 think figured just little bits of things 12 00:00:47,720 --> 00:00:45,410 out so that's just three people now 13 00:00:52,750 --> 00:00:47,730 we're doing this we want to check all 14 00:00:55,580 --> 00:00:52,760 this out where to others like us because 15 00:00:57,529 --> 00:00:55,590 it doesn't know like disrespect man but 16 00:00:58,040 --> 00:00:57,539 if you don't believe it doesn't really 17 00:01:00,020 --> 00:00:58,050 matter 18 00:01:15,200 --> 00:01:00,030 we're not published we're not your 19 00:01:18,530 --> 00:01:15,210 prophit we're not we don't know ed okay 20 00:01:21,499 --> 00:01:18,540 yeah but there's people out there like 21 00:01:26,710 --> 00:01:21,509 us who were in states Oh 22 00:01:30,380 --> 00:01:26,720 in a state like we both were yeah oh 23 00:01:32,660 --> 00:01:30,390 yeah but people attack my mental health 24 00:01:33,440 --> 00:01:32,670 oh she's crazy don't listen to her I've 25 00:01:35,030 --> 00:01:33,450 been crazy 26 00:01:36,980 --> 00:01:35,040 I've been to the edge of madness and 27 00:01:41,450 --> 00:01:36,990 I've come back and gone back and come 28 00:01:43,340 --> 00:01:41,460 back you know an entirely of what has 29 00:01:46,819 --> 00:01:43,350 happened or worse it's entirely 30 00:01:49,490 --> 00:01:46,829 authentic isn't it yeah girl when you're 31 00:01:51,050 --> 00:01:49,500 trapped and you've got honest men into 32 00:01:53,420 --> 00:01:51,060 your house and they're interfering with 33 00:01:55,639 --> 00:01:53,430 you and your children and you can't do a 34 00:01:59,270 --> 00:01:55,649 damn thing to stop it and none of your 35 00:02:03,080 --> 00:01:59,280 relationships ever survive the trauma of 36 00:02:05,480 --> 00:02:03,090 what happens but people of like thought 37 00:02:07,340 --> 00:02:05,490 oh we can you know deal with it look 38 00:02:09,559 --> 00:02:07,350 after it believe me look after me blah 39 00:02:14,600 --> 00:02:09,569 blah when it happens to him it's a 40 00:02:16,890 --> 00:02:14,610 Chrismukkah cacophony ma I yep 41 00:02:18,570 --> 00:02:16,900 yeah and they have the script written 42 00:02:26,970 --> 00:02:18,580 farmed out there anyway because you just 43 00:02:29,790 --> 00:02:26,980 go anyway yeah well people we don't care 44 00:02:32,370 --> 00:02:29,800 we've heard it all before over 30 years 45 00:02:39,690 --> 00:02:32,380 so do you know it just got straight 46 00:02:42,440 --> 00:02:39,700 offices age Oh thing they even if you're 47 00:02:46,260 --> 00:02:42,450 not like us even if you've not been 48 00:02:50,160 --> 00:02:46,270 abducted if you're interested this is 49 00:02:54,420 --> 00:02:50,170 this is our ways you know yeah and and 50 00:02:56,910 --> 00:02:54,430 so you know obviously I've got my trials 51 00:03:03,060 --> 00:02:56,920 their goodness a whatever that's a block 52 00:03:06,540 --> 00:03:03,070 one off yeah you are yeah it's not far 53 00:03:08,130 --> 00:03:06,550 it's not far then I don't people out 54 00:03:09,660 --> 00:03:08,140 there that are like us it's for the 55 00:03:13,640 --> 00:03:09,670 people who want to know further people 56 00:03:17,550 --> 00:03:13,650 who should know because it's Oded and 57 00:03:20,759 --> 00:03:17,560 speak all I asked how the great grows 58 00:03:25,590 --> 00:03:20,769 eyes work right I'm somebody connected 59 00:03:29,640 --> 00:03:25,600 to TSA right 60 00:03:32,039 --> 00:03:29,650 Lockheed Martin Scott works CIA right 61 00:03:33,870 --> 00:03:32,049 there are well-connected people if they 62 00:03:36,300 --> 00:03:33,880 don't know how the greys eyes work they 63 00:03:39,630 --> 00:03:36,310 don't know [\h__\h] why does that offer 64 00:03:40,830 --> 00:03:39,640 house why I think little Paul you know I 65 00:03:43,380 --> 00:03:40,840 mean so there's people out there they're 66 00:03:46,050 --> 00:03:43,390 arts and all this stuff that they 67 00:03:47,460 --> 00:03:46,060 obviously don't know this stuff it tells 68 00:03:51,720 --> 00:03:47,470 me that they're saying the greys are 69 00:03:56,610 --> 00:03:51,730 real mmm-hmm yeah they know they're real 70 00:03:59,479 --> 00:03:56,620 and so there's people out there like 71 00:04:03,360 --> 00:03:59,489 that as well they wouldn't ordinarily 72 00:04:07,050 --> 00:04:03,370 listen to people like us because we're 73 00:04:10,770 --> 00:04:07,060 not credible you know the bottom of the 74 00:04:16,969 --> 00:04:10,780 shitty but we're all the glory is and 75 00:04:19,800 --> 00:04:16,979 all the academia and just the plebs so 76 00:04:22,980 --> 00:04:19,810 well it happens to the worst of is done 77 00:04:24,190 --> 00:04:22,990 a lot of people and there's a lot of 78 00:04:27,010 --> 00:04:24,200 people who never Bielsa 79 00:04:29,290 --> 00:04:27,020 I often wonder about well what happened 80 00:04:32,500 --> 00:04:29,300 to Robbie Williams for example because I 81 00:04:34,300 --> 00:04:32,510 wanted to talk on D along it it you know 82 00:04:36,840 --> 00:04:34,310 the radicchio factor is massive just 83 00:04:39,580 --> 00:04:36,850 because the famous already and whatever 84 00:04:40,390 --> 00:04:39,590 yeah when you to contacts with this 85 00:04:41,770 --> 00:04:40,400 phenomena 86 00:04:44,830 --> 00:04:41,780 it changes you in ways that you could 87 00:04:47,220 --> 00:04:44,840 just never even imagined yeah everything 88 00:04:50,830 --> 00:04:47,230 you know like there would be the time if 89 00:04:52,170 --> 00:04:50,840 like you know I was so depressed I would 90 00:04:55,000 --> 00:04:52,180 have had to be a dancer my knees 91 00:04:57,430 --> 00:04:55,010 shuffling around in the same pair of 92 00:05:00,460 --> 00:04:57,440 slippers for the last six years you know 93 00:05:03,910 --> 00:05:00,470 me he sends you cuckoo and you have to 94 00:05:05,410 --> 00:05:03,920 call your sanity back the only way that 95 00:05:07,240 --> 00:05:05,420 I managed to do that is by talking to 96 00:05:08,560 --> 00:05:07,250 other people like me and so it's 97 00:05:11,650 --> 00:05:08,570 important that we do this for the other 98 00:05:14,050 --> 00:05:11,660 people like us and everyone else it's 99 00:05:18,700 --> 00:05:14,060 just entertainment looking for a feeling 100 00:05:20,470 --> 00:05:18,710 like watching a horror film you know for 101 00:05:21,730 --> 00:05:20,480 the adrenaline rush to whatever but 102 00:05:25,650 --> 00:05:21,740 there's people out there we want to know 103 00:05:27,190 --> 00:05:25,660 and and it's about time people like us 104 00:05:30,880 --> 00:05:27,200 were hurt 105 00:05:37,200 --> 00:05:30,890 yeah I'd say this one because you know 106 00:05:40,990 --> 00:05:37,210 this in banyoles and the Roswell come on 107 00:05:43,480 --> 00:05:41,000 he's millions MA to be told and in just 108 00:05:46,720 --> 00:05:43,490 through me and you it through other 109 00:05:48,070 --> 00:05:46,730 people as well and get it across because 110 00:05:50,650 --> 00:05:48,080 otherwise he's still going to be that 111 00:05:53,910 --> 00:05:50,660 one that's in significant to the bigger 112 00:05:59,800 --> 00:05:53,920 people so if you want to get it across 113 00:06:01,800 --> 00:05:59,810 do what don't know are people retelling 114 00:06:05,580 --> 00:06:01,810 that story so don't do it properly 115 00:06:10,630 --> 00:06:05,590 yeah to get paid to retell our stories 116 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:10,640 does they put it in my books thanks bye 117 00:06:15,220 --> 00:06:13,010 and all right no I don't know really any 118 00:06:18,490 --> 00:06:15,230 people who make money out of writing 119 00:06:20,320 --> 00:06:18,500 books but at the same time they do get 120 00:06:24,070 --> 00:06:20,330 their conference circuits they do get 121 00:06:26,650 --> 00:06:24,080 their attention that you get back moment 122 00:06:33,250 --> 00:06:26,660 of glory and their moment of glory is 123 00:06:39,840 --> 00:06:33,260 all of our misery yeah we don't need 124 00:06:47,580 --> 00:06:43,590 witnesses are doing it for themselves 125 00:06:52,650 --> 00:06:47,590 [Laughter] 126 00:07:03,700 --> 00:06:52,660 yeah just broken some glasses over there 127 00:07:11,860 --> 00:07:03,710 that were - tamed up question that yeah 128 00:07:14,140 --> 00:07:11,870 what your actions no idea all right 129 00:07:18,130 --> 00:07:14,150 is this a question from someone else are 130 00:07:25,300 --> 00:07:18,140 you it's for you paalam idea yeah no but 131 00:07:29,850 --> 00:07:25,310 from me because I City said when I'm 132 00:07:32,260 --> 00:07:29,860 mooching about social media cracy so um 133 00:07:36,700 --> 00:07:32,270 when I say to see you 134 00:07:39,370 --> 00:07:36,710 holla - stop your abductions all you 135 00:07:42,550 --> 00:07:39,380 have to do is raise your vibration to be 136 00:07:52,990 --> 00:07:42,560 that above et technology and they will 137 00:07:56,080 --> 00:07:53,000 stop no it will never stop I can't stop 138 00:08:00,000 --> 00:07:56,090 it if I can't stop it and I'm strong 139 00:08:03,670 --> 00:08:00,010 nobody else is gonna do it from there oh 140 00:08:05,470 --> 00:08:03,680 can we can we raise our vibrations to be 141 00:08:08,050 --> 00:08:05,480 that above our own technology so I can 142 00:08:10,930 --> 00:08:08,060 sit and go and it telly comes online by 143 00:08:14,410 --> 00:08:10,940 itself and I could go and change 144 00:08:17,800 --> 00:08:14,420 channels like hmm no I don't think I can 145 00:08:30,030 --> 00:08:17,810 do that so let's see ET technology which 146 00:08:37,450 --> 00:08:33,250 basic oh we are still playing with VTech 147 00:08:41,010 --> 00:08:37,460 toys be gentle please that's what it is 148 00:08:45,160 --> 00:08:41,020 that's a no compared to those 149 00:08:48,060 --> 00:08:45,170 fisher-price you take fisher-price yeah 150 00:08:55,760 --> 00:08:48,070 that's what we're on 151 00:08:55,770 --> 00:09:03,710 [Laughter] 152 00:09:12,990 --> 00:09:06,840 do you think like you know these things 153 00:09:16,140 --> 00:09:13,000 that can modulate frequencies and and 154 00:09:18,540 --> 00:09:16,150 walk through solid matter all we have to 155 00:09:21,630 --> 00:09:18,550 do is raise our vibration to be that 156 00:09:25,250 --> 00:09:21,640 about bats and then and then everything 157 00:09:28,290 --> 00:09:25,260 will stop the life will be and you'll be 158 00:09:29,490 --> 00:09:28,300 levitating or something where does it 159 00:09:31,500 --> 00:09:29,500 come from this [\h__\h] 160 00:09:40,500 --> 00:09:31,510 look in words of [\h__\h] money if I 161 00:09:43,980 --> 00:09:40,510 could just told no I'm sorry okay okay 162 00:09:45,090 --> 00:09:43,990 I can tell a publicly talk while I'm in 163 00:09:47,640 --> 00:09:45,100 their presence 164 00:09:49,400 --> 00:09:47,650 that's about as technology as it gets 165 00:10:13,160 --> 00:09:49,410 from my department 166 00:10:27,360 --> 00:10:21,540 stroke a big meeting blue light on is to 167 00:10:31,560 --> 00:10:27,370 say some of the light because not with 168 00:10:39,030 --> 00:10:31,570 the way it affects et's unit in ago bins 169 00:10:42,540 --> 00:10:39,040 yes and I woke up right a strange dream 170 00:10:46,860 --> 00:10:42,550 in my head of sitting on the chair 171 00:10:49,530 --> 00:10:46,870 staring a painted black wall and on this 172 00:10:52,770 --> 00:10:49,540 wall were blue lights flashing I'll turn 173 00:10:54,090 --> 00:10:52,780 it was like a ring like a polar so it 174 00:10:57,570 --> 00:10:54,100 was black in the middle so it was like a 175 00:11:02,370 --> 00:10:57,580 ring it was maybe a boy like me comes 176 00:11:05,520 --> 00:11:02,380 okay so to one it 177 00:11:09,210 --> 00:11:05,530 it was slowing down so it was like in a 178 00:11:11,280 --> 00:11:09,220 rhythm it was in a rhythm yeah yeah yeah 179 00:11:13,590 --> 00:11:11,290 so I'm sitting two-chair staring at a 180 00:11:15,660 --> 00:11:13,600 painted black wall because it was all 181 00:11:17,700 --> 00:11:15,670 bumpy and no messed up it wasn't they 182 00:11:19,920 --> 00:11:17,710 can't smooth or anything like somebody 183 00:11:21,780 --> 00:11:19,930 it just got some black gloss pen Italy 184 00:11:25,140 --> 00:11:21,790 on the wall suck me in front of it and 185 00:11:27,150 --> 00:11:25,150 projected these lights right yes sir 186 00:11:29,100 --> 00:11:27,160 you know we have freaky dreams and all 187 00:11:31,380 --> 00:11:29,110 that well when I was putting trainers 188 00:11:33,960 --> 00:11:31,390 are now is getting me just got the kids 189 00:11:36,300 --> 00:11:33,970 to school I could see them on my 190 00:11:38,340 --> 00:11:36,310 trainers swimming around like you know 191 00:11:42,270 --> 00:11:38,350 when you get camera flash and wherever 192 00:11:45,750 --> 00:11:42,280 you you've got that little thing yeah in 193 00:11:49,740 --> 00:11:45,760 my eyes I thought this Catalina dream 194 00:11:52,020 --> 00:11:49,750 because why am i literally my retinas 195 00:11:53,670 --> 00:11:52,030 I've got this imprint in them because 196 00:11:56,430 --> 00:11:53,680 I'm looking at my dream there's a man 197 00:12:01,620 --> 00:11:56,440 and I'm singing this bloom well this 198 00:12:05,070 --> 00:12:01,630 circle moving around the only reason 199 00:12:07,890 --> 00:12:05,080 that I'm not out there is because it 200 00:12:10,010 --> 00:12:07,900 must mean something to somebody right 201 00:12:13,800 --> 00:12:10,020 can I just in a finger there because 202 00:12:16,890 --> 00:12:13,810 instead did you like my dear we're right 203 00:12:19,920 --> 00:12:16,900 there were me enough time so anywhere 204 00:12:23,910 --> 00:12:19,930 and getting so you got your blue like 205 00:12:26,130 --> 00:12:23,920 poem in effect does I had one I were 206 00:12:30,840 --> 00:12:26,140 really extremely poor way with 207 00:12:35,940 --> 00:12:30,850 depression face was because my grandma 208 00:12:39,780 --> 00:12:35,950 died I was 21 and I start seeing things 209 00:12:44,060 --> 00:12:39,790 as more prominent things so I was 210 00:12:50,190 --> 00:12:44,070 experience a lot of likely stashing and 211 00:12:54,090 --> 00:12:50,200 stuff like that and I think I is senses 212 00:12:56,580 --> 00:12:54,100 were heightened and I saw I was doing 213 00:12:59,610 --> 00:12:56,590 somewhere could might be making a sake 214 00:13:02,940 --> 00:12:59,620 McKenna drug and I looked up and right 215 00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:02,950 in front of me was a big massive gold 216 00:13:09,750 --> 00:13:07,810 ring coral ring yeah and like a lot of 217 00:13:12,150 --> 00:13:09,760 sparkly things and the gold that comes 218 00:13:14,820 --> 00:13:12,160 in away it will like that it would just 219 00:13:16,200 --> 00:13:14,830 replace second bump it were a massive 220 00:13:21,870 --> 00:13:16,210 rammed gold 221 00:13:24,269 --> 00:13:21,880 and come and the feeling that I got from 222 00:13:25,680 --> 00:13:24,279 it I was said my grammar died I would 223 00:13:28,860 --> 00:13:25,690 depress do you know I mean it is just 224 00:13:34,190 --> 00:13:28,870 anxiety anxiety and the feeling I got 225 00:13:38,699 --> 00:13:36,810 now that's not me imagining it because I 226 00:13:41,010 --> 00:13:38,709 know exactly how I felt from one minute 227 00:13:43,139 --> 00:13:41,020 to next you can be happy as you know I 228 00:13:47,280 --> 00:13:43,149 mean depression does not make you sad 229 00:13:48,630 --> 00:13:47,290 all the time yeah it's like waves it 230 00:13:50,850 --> 00:13:48,640 comes in waves beats they're 231 00:13:53,490 --> 00:13:50,860 continuously one minute you'll be 232 00:13:54,780 --> 00:13:53,500 laughing and having a joke next minute 233 00:13:56,550 --> 00:13:54,790 you've got tears in your eyes you're 234 00:13:58,860 --> 00:13:56,560 filling up you next something you want 235 00:14:02,820 --> 00:13:58,870 to punch the wall it's all your human 236 00:14:06,990 --> 00:14:02,830 emotions and traits so Overlord they 237 00:14:11,250 --> 00:14:07,000 basically and but after seeing this huge 238 00:14:14,220 --> 00:14:11,260 ring it filled me front room I know that 239 00:14:17,490 --> 00:14:14,230 that helped me with my depression why 240 00:14:21,840 --> 00:14:17,500 what I don't know but it was a huge gold 241 00:14:26,970 --> 00:14:21,850 sparkly ring so I don't know whether 242 00:14:29,610 --> 00:14:26,980 that will you know ATT your spirit type 243 00:14:33,030 --> 00:14:29,620 or anything paranormal so I don't know 244 00:14:35,400 --> 00:14:33,040 but it did help me not to the point it 245 00:14:43,160 --> 00:14:35,410 got me out of it that split-second but I 246 00:14:47,060 --> 00:14:43,170 felt a great release coming aware yeah 247 00:14:50,970 --> 00:14:47,070 well we know that they can hang just 248 00:14:53,010 --> 00:14:50,980 it's a construct that we have and you 249 00:14:56,550 --> 00:14:53,020 know the thing that really it gives us 250 00:15:00,000 --> 00:14:56,560 time is motion yeah it's spinning and 251 00:15:04,530 --> 00:15:00,010 we've measured it they chopped it up 252 00:15:06,990 --> 00:15:04,540 into little bits and but the moments I 253 00:15:13,440 --> 00:15:07,000 mean there seem to be able to see ahead 254 00:15:17,790 --> 00:15:13,450 of time they can manipulate time I mean 255 00:15:23,310 --> 00:15:17,800 that were where we gained I don't know 256 00:15:25,680 --> 00:15:23,320 how much time just take well over is 257 00:15:29,960 --> 00:15:25,690 over an hour to get from your house to 258 00:15:33,740 --> 00:15:29,970 my house god I thought we'd get wrong 259 00:15:41,240 --> 00:15:33,750 I'd say we gained 45 minutes must've 260 00:15:45,080 --> 00:15:41,250 been about 45 minutes just makes no 261 00:15:53,000 --> 00:15:45,090 sense I mean like leave your house go 262 00:15:55,760 --> 00:15:53,010 wrong mystery 12 twice time we got on 263 00:15:59,930 --> 00:15:55,770 the suits and bright motor ways to get 264 00:16:07,360 --> 00:15:59,940 to Liverpool yeah and then get there and 265 00:16:11,510 --> 00:16:07,370 Dave goes you were quick I mean it was 266 00:16:13,730 --> 00:16:11,520 an hour yeah exactly this one when I 267 00:16:18,320 --> 00:16:13,740 realized then when I got checking out of 268 00:16:23,510 --> 00:16:18,330 that window that time and speed and 269 00:16:27,950 --> 00:16:23,520 distance doesn't exist it it's just a 270 00:16:30,410 --> 00:16:27,960 bit of matter there that you didn't live 271 00:16:36,530 --> 00:16:30,420 a pearl you didn't Bradford do you know 272 00:16:38,480 --> 00:16:36,540 what and also in that thing drop off 273 00:16:44,570 --> 00:16:38,490 that things don't behind Jason Andrews 274 00:16:46,550 --> 00:16:44,580 and watch drop straight down but I can't 275 00:16:50,200 --> 00:16:46,560 even tell you how bizarre it is to see 276 00:16:56,270 --> 00:16:53,240 racing it when they're there and they're 277 00:17:05,150 --> 00:16:56,280 you know what I mean you ain't seen a 278 00:17:08,090 --> 00:17:05,160 move but you have its comprehend you 279 00:17:11,030 --> 00:17:08,100 know that most young just can't go now a 280 00:17:13,280 --> 00:17:11,040 wouldn't die mention it at next you know 281 00:17:15,830 --> 00:17:13,290 because you can see him getting closer 282 00:17:20,180 --> 00:17:15,840 but you can't remember that physical 283 00:17:22,760 --> 00:17:20,190 moment just it's not it doesn't exist to 284 00:17:29,420 --> 00:17:22,770 say it just done you can't complain that 285 00:17:33,170 --> 00:17:29,430 speed that you can okay I'm sat on a 286 00:17:36,260 --> 00:17:33,180 chair and I'm staring uh so did that I 287 00:17:38,930 --> 00:17:36,270 know on Facebook right and basically it 288 00:17:41,700 --> 00:17:38,940 was how we looked in their profile 289 00:17:43,650 --> 00:17:41,710 picture and kind 290 00:17:45,780 --> 00:17:43,660 is another person stuck there somebody 291 00:17:49,860 --> 00:17:45,790 that I know on Facebook again looking 292 00:17:54,630 --> 00:17:49,870 like the face profile picture and he's 293 00:17:57,270 --> 00:17:54,640 he's hung there and I'm okay and I I 294 00:18:01,440 --> 00:17:57,280 said gone them prove it 295 00:18:06,030 --> 00:18:01,450 I don't know what you know what I'll be 296 00:18:08,700 --> 00:18:06,040 far go on then prove it and then he's 297 00:18:10,440 --> 00:18:08,710 the face that will see he was like all 298 00:18:11,570 --> 00:18:10,450 lines like you know you get interference 299 00:18:15,780 --> 00:18:11,580 on the CV 300 00:18:18,270 --> 00:18:15,790 thus are gray and then it went back to 301 00:18:20,790 --> 00:18:18,280 the picture the face and I went [\h__\h] 302 00:18:22,920 --> 00:18:20,800 out face changed and he came out and 303 00:18:25,110 --> 00:18:22,930 he's fertile and all a bit droopy like 304 00:18:27,990 --> 00:18:25,120 weed not quite not quite right 305 00:18:30,420 --> 00:18:28,000 anyway let's have a look and stepped out 306 00:18:33,750 --> 00:18:30,430 from behind her and he was a sharp fat 307 00:18:36,840 --> 00:18:33,760 dumpy alien but like what early alien 308 00:18:38,760 --> 00:18:36,850 but he said let's have a look and as 309 00:18:43,290 --> 00:18:38,770 soon as he stepped out from behind a 310 00:18:46,080 --> 00:18:43,300 witch like that yeah I could feel it 311 00:18:48,840 --> 00:18:46,090 feel the warmth in the skin my eyes were 312 00:18:51,300 --> 00:18:48,850 pulled upwards so much the actual 313 00:18:53,190 --> 00:18:51,310 muscles were hurting and I was looking 314 00:18:55,590 --> 00:18:53,200 right look like this into these two 315 00:18:58,290 --> 00:18:55,600 white cups in these big black hangs to 316 00:19:00,690 --> 00:18:58,300 tiny white little pins of white and then 317 00:19:03,300 --> 00:19:00,700 I was looking and then my mind went 318 00:19:03,570 --> 00:19:03,310 white it was not on you Eliza that was 319 00:19:05,820 --> 00:19:03,580 it 320 00:19:07,410 --> 00:19:05,830 but in that film they know that they do 321 00:19:10,020 --> 00:19:07,420 this but they put it for the whole white 322 00:19:11,700 --> 00:19:10,030 is from the outside so they in the men 323 00:19:13,710 --> 00:19:11,710 in black they've got that thing and it 324 00:19:25,410 --> 00:19:13,720 the gadget and he goes there's a flash 325 00:19:27,390 --> 00:19:25,420 it was behind my eyes why it was just 326 00:19:31,890 --> 00:19:27,400 white is white is a piece of paper not a 327 00:19:34,920 --> 00:19:31,900 bright light and then not and I remember 328 00:19:37,440 --> 00:19:34,930 like how so it said today I have been 329 00:19:38,820 --> 00:19:37,450 talking to somebody you know they dream 330 00:19:41,820 --> 00:19:38,830 in like I've been talking to somebody 331 00:19:44,070 --> 00:19:41,830 every night this week and then the next 332 00:19:48,990 --> 00:19:44,080 day I set up and I was like oh my god 333 00:19:51,630 --> 00:19:49,000 this is just happened yeah we're using 334 00:19:53,970 --> 00:19:51,640 the faces of people that I trusted at 335 00:19:54,780 --> 00:19:53,980 the time and that made me trust that 336 00:19:56,310 --> 00:19:54,790 person which 337 00:20:01,050 --> 00:19:56,320 shouldn't have done because that person 338 00:20:05,190 --> 00:20:01,060 then infiltrated my life yeah and wrote 339 00:20:09,090 --> 00:20:05,200 a book about me pretending that she was 340 00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:09,100 my alien haven't learned it well for all 341 00:20:13,560 --> 00:20:12,250 of my pregnancies and like you would not 342 00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:13,570 say that to me 343 00:20:17,640 --> 00:20:15,850 if you because you would know that I 344 00:20:18,330 --> 00:20:17,650 would actually kill you for ruin in my 345 00:20:22,050 --> 00:20:18,340 life 346 00:20:27,990 --> 00:20:22,060 no if my if an alien it was real I would 347 00:20:30,680 --> 00:20:28,000 do I would I mean yeah yeah just time to 348 00:20:34,170 --> 00:20:30,690 tie me up because I I would be furious 349 00:20:37,260 --> 00:20:34,180 for the damage for the trauma to the 350 00:20:39,000 --> 00:20:37,270 malfunctioning you know for all of the 351 00:20:41,160 --> 00:20:39,010 other things that come with all of that 352 00:20:44,370 --> 00:20:41,170 when you're not functioning problem you 353 00:20:47,190 --> 00:20:44,380 life you know the things that people had 354 00:20:50,550 --> 00:20:47,200 recently because I outed a liar it taken 355 00:20:53,870 --> 00:20:50,560 all of my you know reactions to trauma 356 00:20:56,760 --> 00:20:53,880 in the past and bundled them up together 357 00:21:00,660 --> 00:20:56,770 my entire life to make me look like some 358 00:21:04,170 --> 00:21:00,670 kind of crazy freak kids the way that I 359 00:21:06,660 --> 00:21:04,180 reacted yeah I mean to stare monsters in 360 00:21:09,330 --> 00:21:06,670 the eyes and I've I'm coming in my harm 361 00:21:14,070 --> 00:21:09,340 and interfering with all of my family 362 00:21:17,220 --> 00:21:14,080 and and dreams and the nerves bleeds and 363 00:21:21,180 --> 00:21:17,230 in the fear management with my children 364 00:21:27,750 --> 00:21:21,190 and when I'm a single mom living in a 365 00:21:31,890 --> 00:21:27,760 haunted house yeah like you can't my 366 00:21:34,970 --> 00:21:31,900 life has been a [\h__\h] sure like a horror 367 00:21:40,190 --> 00:21:34,980 sure from SATs finish basically yeah 368 00:21:45,410 --> 00:21:40,200 from being four years old and dying and 369 00:21:52,140 --> 00:21:50,190 many times things that have happened 370 00:21:55,710 --> 00:21:52,150 that I've done to myself as well I 371 00:22:01,770 --> 00:21:55,720 should not be here it's almost like they 372 00:22:04,470 --> 00:22:01,780 will not let me go yeah yeah where 373 00:22:10,789 --> 00:22:04,480 things above and 374 00:22:13,369 --> 00:22:10,799 and I can't explain now I'm still here 375 00:22:17,009 --> 00:22:13,379 even falling off a cliff in Thailand 376 00:22:18,659 --> 00:22:17,019 right here here in Thailand and the tree 377 00:22:25,169 --> 00:22:18,669 that had fallen over stopped me from 378 00:22:33,989 --> 00:22:25,179 from dying that I mean yeah I have 379 00:22:34,669 --> 00:22:33,999 crashed and it will appear did you did 380 00:22:42,810 --> 00:22:34,679 you do 381 00:22:43,710 --> 00:22:42,820 electronic you know like a kids computer 382 00:22:46,549 --> 00:22:43,720 it make sense 383 00:22:50,220 --> 00:22:46,559 you did you did nothing going on here 384 00:22:54,779 --> 00:22:50,230 yeah well at my size yeah and I'm kind 385 00:22:58,619 --> 00:22:54,789 awful say you know I'll tell you what it 386 00:23:01,529 --> 00:22:58,629 will like you know when you get um oh my 387 00:23:05,789 --> 00:23:01,539 god what the Carla you ring a fax 388 00:23:07,369 --> 00:23:05,799 machine and it makes their noises it 389 00:23:11,849 --> 00:23:07,379 will like that 390 00:23:14,999 --> 00:23:11,859 like a fax machine noise well you need 391 00:23:16,349 --> 00:23:15,009 to bring something at least you know you 392 00:23:19,769 --> 00:23:16,359 forgot a bit about one of your 393 00:23:21,690 --> 00:23:19,779 experiences will you were like ah say 394 00:23:24,259 --> 00:23:21,700 about that yeah because it would 395 00:23:32,310 --> 00:23:24,269 mentioned on Toby sure one it's uh 396 00:23:37,590 --> 00:23:32,320 another thing I forgot about that the 397 00:23:41,479 --> 00:23:37,600 Bates yeah with this in episode 1 of 398 00:23:52,169 --> 00:23:48,499 I think it well let me have a look beats 399 00:23:54,330 --> 00:23:52,179 what would it the ball a lie it might be 400 00:23:59,489 --> 00:23:54,340 in a piece up to it were very one Otto 401 00:24:02,249 --> 00:23:59,499 and previous to this me my friends on 402 00:24:06,239 --> 00:24:02,259 each side at fireplace and the what the 403 00:24:08,070 --> 00:24:06,249 tuba light coming through um I'm gonna 404 00:24:10,970 --> 00:24:08,080 make this drink I don't know why I'd 405 00:24:13,619 --> 00:24:10,980 forgot this cuz I get buzzing 406 00:24:16,529 --> 00:24:13,629 continuously anywhere you know we are 407 00:24:22,820 --> 00:24:16,539 swish you know whooshing and and I know 408 00:24:26,970 --> 00:24:25,500 where the you know I mean I'm not in 409 00:24:28,470 --> 00:24:26,980 that because I don't suffer from it and 410 00:24:31,680 --> 00:24:28,480 I know damn well they don't met this 411 00:24:33,419 --> 00:24:31,690 nice but me my friends were sat there 412 00:24:35,190 --> 00:24:33,429 drinking his coffee previous to making 413 00:24:38,360 --> 00:24:35,200 another one services we're on the second 414 00:24:41,070 --> 00:24:38,370 coffered before that ball comes and 415 00:24:42,960 --> 00:24:41,080 which she's at this moment I'm certain 416 00:24:48,360 --> 00:24:42,970 the sulfur and she sat on the fireplace 417 00:24:53,760 --> 00:24:48,370 and is this like an electronic beeping 418 00:24:59,240 --> 00:24:53,770 noise if he PBB PBB baby and I couldn't 419 00:25:03,060 --> 00:24:59,250 even it were my it won't even electronic 420 00:25:07,200 --> 00:25:03,070 it like somewhat wound up you know what 421 00:25:09,990 --> 00:25:07,210 I mean it when I can't explain it anyway 422 00:25:13,110 --> 00:25:10,000 like you own somewhat open it kind of 423 00:25:15,570 --> 00:25:13,120 comes back bearing in mind that my 424 00:25:18,060 --> 00:25:15,580 mobile phone were on charged upstairs 425 00:25:20,130 --> 00:25:18,070 and it were taught with flour and my 426 00:25:21,570 --> 00:25:20,140 friends had left I mean these are when 427 00:25:25,440 --> 00:25:21,580 we could have you know when we first 428 00:25:28,950 --> 00:25:25,450 could afford them about the firm's you 429 00:25:30,930 --> 00:25:28,960 know what I mean so it's not the Android 430 00:25:35,940 --> 00:25:30,940 or out like that you've got your basic 431 00:25:39,690 --> 00:25:35,950 talk and text and it's like 25p get deep 432 00:25:43,740 --> 00:25:39,700 texture so much you know what I mean we 433 00:25:53,100 --> 00:25:43,750 didn't have Teresa don't think so so 434 00:25:57,000 --> 00:25:53,110 yeah people never saw quality only side 435 00:26:01,799 --> 00:25:57,010 black and white to think when I would 436 00:26:05,610 --> 00:26:01,809 say uh so anywhere any years these boy I 437 00:26:08,610 --> 00:26:05,620 knew what life all the world on so I 438 00:26:11,220 --> 00:26:08,620 knew that it would like say three foot 439 00:26:13,500 --> 00:26:11,230 above the flower or six foot above the 440 00:26:16,560 --> 00:26:13,510 floor or it will offer it would over 441 00:26:20,430 --> 00:26:16,570 there and I knew so every time I 442 00:26:22,789 --> 00:26:20,440 approach this it's going eat eat eat eat 443 00:26:27,030 --> 00:26:22,799 eat eat eat eat but it my like 444 00:26:30,539 --> 00:26:27,040 mechanical asset mechanical wind-up 445 00:26:31,800 --> 00:26:30,549 mechanical and it were you know 446 00:26:35,300 --> 00:26:31,810 different turns 447 00:26:38,190 --> 00:26:35,310 the every time I approached this noise 448 00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:38,200 it got with different part at room so it 449 00:26:43,080 --> 00:26:40,210 would be like six foot I get up and I 450 00:26:47,610 --> 00:26:43,090 knew exactly where the noise where and 451 00:26:50,670 --> 00:26:47,620 what level high it would on our bill 452 00:26:53,100 --> 00:26:50,680 that I don't know but it like you know 453 00:26:54,810 --> 00:26:53,110 I'm a healer just directed at his beats 454 00:26:58,590 --> 00:26:54,820 on me friendly say what he says at the 455 00:27:02,160 --> 00:26:58,600 door no I really do not know we every 456 00:27:04,050 --> 00:27:02,170 time we approach this beep it has moved 457 00:27:06,780 --> 00:27:04,060 somewhere else lower down there at that 458 00:27:10,050 --> 00:27:06,790 side of that side and it got to the 459 00:27:13,890 --> 00:27:10,060 stage where we took all the cushions off 460 00:27:16,230 --> 00:27:13,900 the surfer the chairs took out you know 461 00:27:18,360 --> 00:27:16,240 see in bit the back pay off tipped it 462 00:27:21,420 --> 00:27:18,370 upside down even looked underneath it 463 00:27:23,430 --> 00:27:21,430 pulled the cabinet out we did everything 464 00:27:26,460 --> 00:27:23,440 to find where these the one even any 465 00:27:29,460 --> 00:27:26,470 kids toys there were nothing in there 466 00:27:31,140 --> 00:27:29,470 that a dude this noise even my child did 467 00:27:37,080 --> 00:27:31,150 another tide that could make them 468 00:27:40,950 --> 00:27:37,090 beeping noises like mechanical and it 469 00:27:43,230 --> 00:27:40,960 were and then we'd strict everything and 470 00:27:46,710 --> 00:27:43,240 it kind of that's when it stopped 471 00:27:49,050 --> 00:27:46,720 we've gone upstairs no we'd stood and 472 00:27:52,560 --> 00:27:49,060 listened like it looks like it's you 473 00:27:54,180 --> 00:27:52,570 know what I mean nothing and when I made 474 00:27:58,110 --> 00:27:54,190 this next coffee and I went and sat on 475 00:28:01,350 --> 00:27:58,120 the fireplace it were like you know five 476 00:28:04,470 --> 00:28:01,360 minutes laughter that you know this ball 477 00:28:07,100 --> 00:28:04,480 come to polite come through my window 478 00:28:10,260 --> 00:28:07,110 so I've no idea what these blokes are 479 00:28:12,870 --> 00:28:10,270 but then we're another time I were lying 480 00:28:17,040 --> 00:28:12,880 in bed and this were a couple year ago 481 00:28:18,900 --> 00:28:17,050 and I felt a presence in the room but I 482 00:28:22,980 --> 00:28:18,910 won't compel to open the eyes I had 483 00:28:27,890 --> 00:28:22,990 Lawler at the side of me and she's fast 484 00:28:30,660 --> 00:28:27,900 asleep maybe two and a half three and 485 00:28:34,260 --> 00:28:30,670 she's fast asleep not a sound 486 00:28:37,850 --> 00:28:34,270 and like I said felt this presence in 487 00:28:40,890 --> 00:28:37,860 that where I can write heavy presence I 488 00:28:44,130 --> 00:28:40,900 didn't open my eyes ignore compeller and 489 00:28:45,020 --> 00:28:44,140 I heard what sounded like a bull's a 490 00:28:52,760 --> 00:28:45,030 real 491 00:28:55,790 --> 00:28:52,770 Bulls like that and what is it but it 492 00:28:58,880 --> 00:28:55,800 we're going to call them the egg from me 493 00:29:00,320 --> 00:28:58,890 right side as soon as I thought that 494 00:29:03,560 --> 00:29:00,330 what is that noise 495 00:29:08,240 --> 00:29:03,570 it stopped stopped for a few seconds 496 00:29:10,460 --> 00:29:08,250 when in Evalia hmm right bass and I just 497 00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:10,470 come I couldn't figure it out why I was 498 00:29:16,520 --> 00:29:14,130 good and it did it the same exact same 499 00:29:21,050 --> 00:29:16,530 line for time in each area with a field 500 00:29:25,220 --> 00:29:21,060 second gap in its weighing no idea I've 501 00:29:34,490 --> 00:29:25,230 no idea but this is I believe it is part 502 00:29:40,310 --> 00:29:34,500 of it you know yeah I remember Harry 503 00:29:42,680 --> 00:29:40,320 like you know like a radio been going to 504 00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:42,690 tuning few different frequencies you 505 00:29:47,960 --> 00:29:45,810 know in my head it was like I heard the 506 00:29:51,440 --> 00:29:47,970 taxi rank and then the local radio 507 00:29:54,980 --> 00:29:51,450 station and then yeah al what else and I 508 00:29:57,320 --> 00:29:54,990 was just laid in bed with all this my 509 00:29:58,510 --> 00:29:57,330 head I was awake wasn't it wasn't a 510 00:30:02,900 --> 00:29:58,520 dream 511 00:30:05,870 --> 00:30:02,910 and it was like somehow I was going 512 00:30:08,390 --> 00:30:05,880 through all the frequencies all the 513 00:30:11,360 --> 00:30:08,400 frequency bands in the area go and that 514 00:30:13,700 --> 00:30:11,370 obviously I don't think I was I don't 515 00:30:16,670 --> 00:30:13,710 know I don't know what that was but that 516 00:30:18,170 --> 00:30:16,680 was at the same in that same period of 517 00:30:23,600 --> 00:30:18,180 time I was having a lot of like 518 00:30:25,910 --> 00:30:23,610 out-of-body stuff and it was you know 519 00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:25,920 the one with not met Jason and that's 520 00:30:29,720 --> 00:30:27,930 that what may it had been peeled like an 521 00:30:31,490 --> 00:30:29,730 orange and something that gone through 522 00:30:34,850 --> 00:30:31,500 my body it was all around back that time 523 00:30:36,020 --> 00:30:34,860 and I had this download I had to but I 524 00:30:40,310 --> 00:30:36,030 can't remember the second one the first 525 00:30:43,490 --> 00:30:40,320 one was really really straight kid yes 526 00:30:46,160 --> 00:30:43,500 it was a bright blue sky with a big 527 00:30:47,930 --> 00:30:46,170 yellow sunflower and then it went from 528 00:30:51,500 --> 00:30:47,940 the sunflower to the center of the 529 00:30:53,810 --> 00:30:51,510 sunflower I think it was like sacred 530 00:30:57,950 --> 00:30:53,820 geometry type thing so it showed me the 531 00:30:59,100 --> 00:30:57,960 center and then then the little pockets 532 00:31:02,200 --> 00:30:59,110 where the seeds were 533 00:31:04,510 --> 00:31:02,210 yeah yeah how they all fit together 534 00:31:07,930 --> 00:31:04,520 oh it's like a little bit honeycomb and 535 00:31:09,640 --> 00:31:07,940 then it went from low to be in like a 536 00:31:11,860 --> 00:31:09,650 black background like a black computer 537 00:31:15,910 --> 00:31:11,870 background was data streaming down this 538 00:31:19,300 --> 00:31:15,920 side like watch in the margin there but 539 00:31:22,420 --> 00:31:19,310 in front of you know what was he was a a 540 00:31:26,650 --> 00:31:22,430 I think a ball that was turning it was 541 00:31:29,770 --> 00:31:26,660 all pockets on it like the song flour so 542 00:31:32,320 --> 00:31:29,780 to me it was like in my mind when I 543 00:31:37,060 --> 00:31:32,330 think about it now it's like if you were 544 00:31:39,880 --> 00:31:37,070 to have a craft in space you know if 545 00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:39,890 anything may hit it if it had if it was 546 00:31:44,190 --> 00:31:41,810 not all section if it was a little tiny 547 00:31:49,270 --> 00:31:44,200 pockets like this it would only damage 548 00:31:52,600 --> 00:31:49,280 that area rupture throughout the whole 549 00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:52,610 skin of the whole of the craft attack 550 00:31:58,240 --> 00:31:56,090 and this is how it comes to me to two 551 00:32:00,430 --> 00:31:58,250 layers of the honeycomb so that if 552 00:32:03,270 --> 00:32:00,440 anything hits it's on these small 553 00:32:07,150 --> 00:32:03,280 pockets that need repairing and not all 554 00:32:10,780 --> 00:32:07,160 yeah the hole then it was like wiring 555 00:32:13,540 --> 00:32:10,790 diagrams and it got so fast with it he 556 00:32:15,810 --> 00:32:13,550 started off quite slow like faster 557 00:32:20,470 --> 00:32:15,820 faster and it was just flashing images 558 00:32:22,780 --> 00:32:20,480 yeah I know I'm a lay down and I said in 559 00:32:25,180 --> 00:32:22,790 my head he's too fast I can't read it I 560 00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:25,190 can't see it and then these voice are 561 00:32:34,810 --> 00:32:28,370 these thought said don't worry about it 562 00:32:37,840 --> 00:32:34,820 just needs to be in there stop what were 563 00:32:39,940 --> 00:32:37,850 a cease it's there it's bad I don't know 564 00:32:44,470 --> 00:32:39,950 what I don't know it was all too quick 565 00:32:48,880 --> 00:32:44,480 but the first thing it was like I think 566 00:32:51,220 --> 00:32:48,890 the sacred geometry into technology yeah 567 00:33:04,840 --> 00:32:51,230 I don't know if that I mean anything to 568 00:33:07,930 --> 00:33:04,850 anybody me I am of that but I understood 569 00:33:10,030 --> 00:33:07,940 that like a geometry thing in it just 570 00:33:21,520 --> 00:33:10,040 come at me and I'm not gonna stuff like 571 00:33:23,170 --> 00:33:21,530 that you know and I don't know why I did 572 00:33:25,810 --> 00:33:23,180 it because I'm not into that sort of 573 00:33:30,070 --> 00:33:25,820 thing so why it's just one of them 574 00:33:34,930 --> 00:33:30,080 things that kind of up them you know 575 00:33:38,500 --> 00:33:34,940 yeah like when I do he ah repair I 576 00:33:42,400 --> 00:33:38,510 always have one live tree when one tree 577 00:33:46,750 --> 00:33:42,410 that's alive and one dead tree all of my 578 00:33:51,730 --> 00:33:46,760 paintings all of them that you know why 579 00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:51,740 I do it I don't know why you do one like 580 00:33:58,890 --> 00:33:54,290 a tree with no leaves on the other Hill 581 00:34:07,870 --> 00:34:02,370 early in through and I painted that 582 00:34:10,210 --> 00:34:07,880 picture of a hill in the field with one 583 00:34:12,670 --> 00:34:10,220 tree on it and it was no leaves on it 584 00:34:16,230 --> 00:34:12,680 and I I've just stopped dead when I saw 585 00:34:19,650 --> 00:34:16,240 it I was like oh my god 586 00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:19,660 98 with they what you were thinking and 587 00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:24,890 when you went to Wales four miles to go 588 00:34:29,410 --> 00:34:27,770 and to be up on the side of please held 589 00:34:35,350 --> 00:34:29,420 so you could have a look around to see 590 00:34:37,240 --> 00:34:35,360 if we could see a nightclub with lasers 591 00:34:39,700 --> 00:34:37,250 on the roof or something to explain what 592 00:34:42,130 --> 00:34:39,710 we see and then we we went and we were 593 00:34:44,110 --> 00:34:42,140 stood on this little hill in the middle 594 00:34:45,820 --> 00:34:44,120 east massive field with that one train 595 00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:45,830 it had no leaves are there and that's 596 00:34:50,230 --> 00:34:47,690 where the ginger cap came up side roping 597 00:35:02,260 --> 00:34:50,240 itself on me like and I just went I'm so 598 00:35:07,360 --> 00:35:02,270 freaked out right now we yeah yeah it 599 00:35:16,360 --> 00:35:07,370 was freaky hey Sam 600 00:35:19,180 --> 00:35:16,370 nine o'clock nearly nine in that yeah so 601 00:35:21,310 --> 00:35:19,190 I'll talk about one that is not even in 602 00:35:22,450 --> 00:35:21,320 the chronology of what would be my life 603 00:35:24,610 --> 00:35:22,460 because I can't remember when it 604 00:35:26,350 --> 00:35:24,620 happened apart from you know when I was 605 00:35:28,240 --> 00:35:26,360 teenager and this because we're talking 606 00:35:33,010 --> 00:35:28,250 about drawings that it pops into my head 607 00:35:39,610 --> 00:35:33,020 yeah when I was about 15 I once drew 608 00:35:42,460 --> 00:35:39,620 this alien right and I remembered I drew 609 00:35:46,570 --> 00:35:42,470 it because I had in my head like I've 610 00:35:50,380 --> 00:35:46,580 seen it and it was and it was gentle it 611 00:35:52,150 --> 00:35:50,390 was very very old it was a brownie color 612 00:35:56,410 --> 00:35:52,160 but not quite brown my like and 613 00:36:00,580 --> 00:35:56,420 mushroomy brown ha ice blue eyes like 614 00:36:05,290 --> 00:36:00,590 round pupils like normal eyes and little 615 00:36:07,480 --> 00:36:05,300 wastes of hair it just to me felt like 616 00:36:10,330 --> 00:36:07,490 about a billion years old what it was 617 00:36:14,230 --> 00:36:10,340 and it there any facial expressions 618 00:36:16,960 --> 00:36:14,240 had an air of emotion about it I can 619 00:36:18,640 --> 00:36:16,970 remember it I can feel it that's a bit 620 00:36:20,670 --> 00:36:18,650 like night that done it little Danny 621 00:36:23,350 --> 00:36:20,680 DeVito by icarly's 622 00:36:27,340 --> 00:36:23,360 yeah but it's so hard to remember the 623 00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:27,350 actual being that I saw because every 624 00:36:32,140 --> 00:36:29,690 time I remember it it's drawing that I 625 00:36:35,140 --> 00:36:32,150 drew it's not a slides over the top of 626 00:36:38,250 --> 00:36:35,150 it so it's like the drawings the thing 627 00:36:41,590 --> 00:36:38,260 that I can remember the most and that I 628 00:36:44,380 --> 00:36:41,600 find another it's that's kind of sad 629 00:36:46,240 --> 00:36:44,390 because you know of all the scary stuff 630 00:36:46,510 --> 00:36:46,250 that I've had and all and run for my 631 00:36:49,260 --> 00:36:46,520 life 632 00:36:54,820 --> 00:36:49,270 and I've been terrified out of my mind 633 00:36:58,540 --> 00:36:54,830 that didn't feel bad also the blue the 634 00:37:03,880 --> 00:36:58,550 blue one that I saw in 1992 the blue 635 00:37:06,570 --> 00:37:03,890 goblin feel bad the only thing that I 636 00:37:11,910 --> 00:37:06,580 thought was the but Chileans are scary 637 00:37:16,180 --> 00:37:11,920 yeah they're scary but like because 638 00:37:17,740 --> 00:37:16,190 bacon the you know and they're scary 639 00:37:18,550 --> 00:37:17,750 thinking like something next to a 640 00:37:22,480 --> 00:37:18,560 dinosaur 641 00:37:23,740 --> 00:37:22,490 are you are that yeah there are yeah it 642 00:37:26,470 --> 00:37:23,750 Gray's are different because the 643 00:37:29,770 --> 00:37:26,480 reptilians they actually have emotion 644 00:37:31,690 --> 00:37:29,780 they have feelings you know might not 645 00:37:33,430 --> 00:37:31,700 operate the same way as we do but 646 00:37:37,339 --> 00:37:33,440 they're more like us than the greys are 647 00:37:43,039 --> 00:37:37,349 yeah they are yeah so like 648 00:37:45,469 --> 00:37:43,049 nothing no just the lights bog you know 649 00:37:47,690 --> 00:37:45,479 me relentless I think they are like the 650 00:37:50,660 --> 00:37:47,700 bog in my where's that one that they 651 00:37:52,130 --> 00:37:50,670 assimilate like you know the hybrid 652 00:37:53,509 --> 00:37:52,140 thing that the do I don't think they do 653 00:37:55,130 --> 00:37:53,519 it with just us I think they do it if 654 00:37:58,339 --> 00:37:55,140 they find any life on any other planet 655 00:38:04,249 --> 00:37:58,349 anywhere yeah there would be messing 656 00:38:08,359 --> 00:38:04,259 with the Bob assimilated them people 657 00:38:10,999 --> 00:38:08,369 with you know mechanical bits they do it 658 00:38:13,519 --> 00:38:11,009 genetically yeah I don't know why I 659 00:38:18,489 --> 00:38:13,529 think that I may be a crazy person 660 00:38:24,680 --> 00:38:18,499 it's not how to Darrell possibility what 661 00:38:27,229 --> 00:38:24,690 about the like so that's not pence those 662 00:38:28,789 --> 00:38:27,239 humans if there was other wife 663 00:38:32,239 --> 00:38:28,799 it was intelligent which there will be 664 00:38:34,599 --> 00:38:32,249 and all the planets in other solar 665 00:38:37,849 --> 00:38:34,609 systems they'll get the same treatment 666 00:38:40,759 --> 00:38:37,859 the same treatment as we do and there's 667 00:38:44,289 --> 00:38:40,769 no like you know kiss when I freaked out 668 00:38:47,120 --> 00:38:44,299 and that's threatened to kill myself and 669 00:38:49,400 --> 00:38:47,130 you know if you don't leave us alone I'm 670 00:38:52,609 --> 00:38:49,410 gonna do this that I'm you're there when 671 00:38:54,709 --> 00:38:52,619 you don't know no I was confused by that 672 00:38:57,380 --> 00:38:54,719 cuz I thought maybe they do care 673 00:38:59,479 --> 00:38:57,390 I've ever thought no no I don't think 674 00:39:02,359 --> 00:38:59,489 they do I don't think they do it's just 675 00:39:05,150 --> 00:39:02,369 like protecting them asset yeah I mean 676 00:39:10,579 --> 00:39:05,160 it's like no we've we've got too much 677 00:39:11,989 --> 00:39:10,589 invested in this yeah yeah if you if 678 00:39:14,779 --> 00:39:11,999 you've worked a long time with a 679 00:39:17,450 --> 00:39:14,789 chimpanzee in a lab or whatever whatever 680 00:39:22,069 --> 00:39:17,460 you were doing you know you won't do 681 00:39:23,690 --> 00:39:22,079 something to bring that experiment to an 682 00:39:28,489 --> 00:39:23,700 end that it wasn't going to come to the 683 00:39:30,109 --> 00:39:28,499 you know a little unnatural end I think 684 00:39:33,529 --> 00:39:30,119 it's like oh we're all chosen was 685 00:39:37,039 --> 00:39:33,539 special or anything I think to me with 686 00:39:41,950 --> 00:39:37,049 the greys the like scientists in the lab 687 00:39:48,430 --> 00:39:46,329 I don't like him all right look but that 688 00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:48,440 other one you know the little lumpy fat 689 00:39:56,500 --> 00:39:53,410 one doesn't seem to be like the others 690 00:39:59,319 --> 00:39:56,510 don't like them that well in like them 691 00:40:02,650 --> 00:39:59,329 but like then when I were going down 692 00:40:05,530 --> 00:40:02,660 that through that corridor saw the three 693 00:40:08,920 --> 00:40:05,540 breads but they wouldn't Fedor ups and 694 00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:08,930 you know I mean you've Mimi type things 695 00:40:13,870 --> 00:40:10,970 and I went in at that room and they were 696 00:40:16,450 --> 00:40:13,880 very Placid creatures I'd say creature I 697 00:40:18,790 --> 00:40:16,460 don't know which some pit mouths at 698 00:40:22,540 --> 00:40:18,800 little things that they had a lot of 699 00:40:24,609 --> 00:40:22,550 emotion you know I know the yard because 700 00:40:29,799 --> 00:40:24,619 I was scared there was scared to my 701 00:40:31,809 --> 00:40:29,809 prisons yeah stirs I'm assuming just as 702 00:40:37,900 --> 00:40:31,819 like I'm scared of the greys presence 703 00:40:41,200 --> 00:40:37,910 they were scared to mine some are very 704 00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:41,210 scary we are we can be so pure beautiful 705 00:40:49,299 --> 00:40:45,770 and angelic and I was people like it 706 00:40:51,789 --> 00:40:49,309 literally any single one of us could go 707 00:40:54,880 --> 00:40:51,799 from being the most wonderful person 708 00:40:57,849 --> 00:40:54,890 ever to the most purest evil depending 709 00:41:01,000 --> 00:40:57,859 on what what happens to a person what 710 00:41:06,220 --> 00:41:01,010 backers of down here you know being that 711 00:41:08,710 --> 00:41:06,230 way so we do need controlling especially 712 00:41:11,140 --> 00:41:08,720 like when I gotta learn Wing John gongfu 713 00:41:13,180 --> 00:41:11,150 because I felt like I needed to fight 714 00:41:16,599 --> 00:41:13,190 for my life and one time had an 715 00:41:18,760 --> 00:41:16,609 operation hide in one of them nor plant 716 00:41:22,120 --> 00:41:18,770 implants put him in the early nineties 717 00:41:24,130 --> 00:41:22,130 where it made me so parley yeah after 718 00:41:25,390 --> 00:41:24,140 like months and months and months of me 719 00:41:29,380 --> 00:41:25,400 begging please to carry out placed 720 00:41:31,750 --> 00:41:29,390 account they were going to perform in an 721 00:41:33,430 --> 00:41:31,760 operation so it's rather like an M 722 00:41:34,870 --> 00:41:33,440 alright like her you know like a 723 00:41:39,940 --> 00:41:34,880 mammogram but on my arm 724 00:41:43,059 --> 00:41:39,950 yeah a piece of metal in Timonium also 725 00:41:45,520 --> 00:41:43,069 and the and the kind of like tagged 726 00:41:47,049 --> 00:41:45,530 where the thing was because instead of 727 00:41:49,780 --> 00:41:47,059 it sort of sitting just underneath my 728 00:41:54,680 --> 00:41:49,790 skin it actually gone inside my muscle I 729 00:41:56,750 --> 00:41:54,690 add on yeah so I had to have a proper 730 00:41:58,640 --> 00:41:56,760 an aesthetic operation because they were 731 00:42:01,130 --> 00:41:58,650 going to have to go into my myself and 732 00:42:03,560 --> 00:42:01,140 find it so did this operation 733 00:42:06,530 --> 00:42:03,570 they usually they're slicing the muscle 734 00:42:09,500 --> 00:42:06,540 up and got to the end of this wire and 735 00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:09,510 it wasn't there so they had to stay a 736 00:42:14,120 --> 00:42:11,490 lot all that muscle and then they had to 737 00:42:16,010 --> 00:42:14,130 find it and then go to it get it out in 738 00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:16,020 the end I've been under general 739 00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:18,570 anaesthetic for three hours for them 740 00:42:26,420 --> 00:42:22,410 getting out you know um the mess of my 741 00:42:28,640 --> 00:42:26,430 arm anyway when I came round I woke up 742 00:42:31,430 --> 00:42:28,650 in the hospital bed and the chief 743 00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:31,440 gynecologist because obviously it was to 744 00:42:37,070 --> 00:42:35,490 do with reproductive he was I put my 745 00:42:38,840 --> 00:42:37,080 eyes and looked and he's on the 746 00:42:41,750 --> 00:42:38,850 windowsill and he's looking out and he's 747 00:42:43,370 --> 00:42:41,760 like stroking his beard like this and I 748 00:42:50,450 --> 00:42:43,380 looked at him and he looked down at me 749 00:42:53,360 --> 00:42:50,460 and he said you had I can't remember his 750 00:42:55,370 --> 00:42:53,370 exact words basically told me that when 751 00:42:58,040 --> 00:42:55,380 I come around from my anaesthetic I 752 00:43:02,690 --> 00:42:58,050 kicked the anisa taste in the face 753 00:43:05,570 --> 00:43:02,700 I took the nurse hostage by a hair I was 754 00:43:07,520 --> 00:43:05,580 over I was screaming get your filthy 755 00:43:11,810 --> 00:43:07,530 hands off me you dirty bastards 756 00:43:14,150 --> 00:43:11,820 yes upon meeting today at May right when 757 00:43:16,850 --> 00:43:14,160 I came round I'm kicked off again I was 758 00:43:20,150 --> 00:43:16,860 literally out of an anaesthetic and 759 00:43:22,220 --> 00:43:20,160 fighting I was fighting people yeah yeah 760 00:43:27,230 --> 00:43:22,230 time to get away from me and they had to 761 00:43:29,180 --> 00:43:27,240 sedate me twice now he I think he was 762 00:43:37,240 --> 00:43:29,190 expecting me to say something to him 763 00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:42,230 wow you know I'd beaten up beating 764 00:43:46,210 --> 00:43:42,930 people up 765 00:43:51,980 --> 00:43:46,220 I kicked the anesthetist in the face 766 00:43:53,750 --> 00:43:51,990 jumped off the table but I was on the 767 00:43:58,100 --> 00:43:53,760 operating what are whatever whatever 768 00:44:01,250 --> 00:43:58,110 pain no Maria I know and my notes are 769 00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:01,260 missing but you know when you go and you 770 00:44:04,430 --> 00:44:02,850 guys to hospital they do a print out 771 00:44:07,370 --> 00:44:04,440 they do you know of all the little 772 00:44:08,510 --> 00:44:07,380 visits that you've had you go missing 773 00:44:16,880 --> 00:44:08,520 and it's 774 00:44:20,780 --> 00:44:16,890 period of time no I mean I don't 775 00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:20,790 okay why me no right no right they soon 776 00:44:24,680 --> 00:44:22,290 yeah yeah 777 00:44:30,890 --> 00:44:24,690 what who did I think they were who did I 778 00:44:34,970 --> 00:44:30,900 think that I was very far that was 1990 779 00:44:36,740 --> 00:44:34,980 said this before way before I got 780 00:44:42,710 --> 00:44:36,750 involved in the UFO community and it was 781 00:44:44,810 --> 00:44:42,720 oh well no he had to my operation at far 782 00:44:46,690 --> 00:44:44,820 because I had all you know you chill 783 00:44:49,700 --> 00:44:46,700 MERS and the army units checking out 784 00:44:52,340 --> 00:44:49,710 when I come round the third you face 785 00:44:55,250 --> 00:44:52,350 but when I come round I were in a 786 00:44:59,270 --> 00:44:55,260 darkened room and this room look [\h__\h] 787 00:45:02,180 --> 00:44:59,280 massive and it were darkened and I 788 00:45:05,330 --> 00:45:02,190 remember I've gone right at an appalled 789 00:45:09,710 --> 00:45:05,340 in this little Chinese man come running 790 00:45:14,330 --> 00:45:09,720 over but yeah the dark the black ray 791 00:45:16,820 --> 00:45:14,340 eyes and it was just that moment that it 792 00:45:18,890 --> 00:45:16,830 might have been a few seconds and a 793 00:45:21,710 --> 00:45:18,900 panic and a lot you know trying to fight 794 00:45:24,620 --> 00:45:21,720 him off but then it will again then I 795 00:45:27,650 --> 00:45:24,630 knew we were a little Chinese man but 796 00:45:31,240 --> 00:45:27,660 why would I have seen those black eyes 797 00:45:35,810 --> 00:45:31,250 under the circumstances in previous 798 00:45:38,810 --> 00:45:35,820 moments where I've loved that done me by 799 00:45:40,730 --> 00:45:38,820 then you know what I mean so that's 800 00:45:45,440 --> 00:45:40,740 probably where I freaked out and saw 801 00:45:49,820 --> 00:45:45,450 that you know you remind me of I won't 802 00:45:51,430 --> 00:45:49,830 mention the name km and her experiences 803 00:45:53,660 --> 00:45:51,440 she might 804 00:45:55,310 --> 00:45:53,670 she's such a Jewish oh of me I don't 805 00:46:00,140 --> 00:45:55,320 know if she'll do a video with me 806 00:46:02,270 --> 00:46:00,150 yeah but I've known her right from 2005 807 00:46:03,730 --> 00:46:02,280 as well it's like we all found each 808 00:46:07,460 --> 00:46:03,740 other as soon as we find each other 809 00:46:09,320 --> 00:46:07,470 there's no letting go yeah yeah my all 810 00:46:12,050 --> 00:46:09,330 the people that were with me when the 811 00:46:15,470 --> 00:46:12,060 first started talking right in 2005 812 00:46:18,830 --> 00:46:15,480 you know the car people still with me 813 00:46:21,470 --> 00:46:18,840 today yeah in years like a consignment 814 00:46:25,559 --> 00:46:21,480 is one of them Italia 815 00:46:28,440 --> 00:46:25,569 pretty sure you fo sho and the first one 816 00:46:30,540 --> 00:46:28,450 in 2005 which was my first ever UFO 817 00:46:33,870 --> 00:46:30,550 conference and I went on my own I just 818 00:46:36,900 --> 00:46:33,880 thought I just have to I can't you know 819 00:46:41,339 --> 00:46:36,910 I've got um I've got at least how I mean 820 00:46:43,170 --> 00:46:41,349 I mean in seasons in the UI furs and I 821 00:46:46,440 --> 00:46:43,180 was sat with Jeanette France and I was 822 00:46:48,630 --> 00:46:46,450 sat with Jason I don't know if Jason was 823 00:46:51,480 --> 00:46:48,640 talking now maybe somebody was talking 824 00:46:57,650 --> 00:46:51,490 but I was sat with Paul and Annette 825 00:47:01,349 --> 00:46:57,660 France John Hanson and Dom and I 826 00:47:03,569 --> 00:47:01,359 remember who else but I said oh yeah 827 00:47:05,220 --> 00:47:03,579 Andrews and Paul so stay friends I 828 00:47:06,930 --> 00:47:05,230 thought were the first people that and 829 00:47:10,079 --> 00:47:06,940 then and they kind of cuz I was on my 830 00:47:13,620 --> 00:47:10,089 own so I took me come sit with us you 831 00:47:15,660 --> 00:47:13,630 know so I did and I saw what's up I 832 00:47:19,740 --> 00:47:15,670 could feel like somebody was trying to 833 00:47:22,349 --> 00:47:19,750 get into my head I had trained ya know 834 00:47:28,349 --> 00:47:22,359 someone's like staring at you like you 835 00:47:31,589 --> 00:47:28,359 could feel it I didn't want to be too 836 00:47:33,089 --> 00:47:31,599 obvious she's not mean I'm I really am I 837 00:47:35,730 --> 00:47:33,099 just a crazy person at this point in 838 00:47:38,130 --> 00:47:35,740 time I thought I was mad yeah okay 839 00:47:46,170 --> 00:47:38,140 looking around and then the end I was 840 00:47:48,510 --> 00:47:46,180 like this I don't know who isn't the 841 00:47:50,339 --> 00:47:48,520 doctor what they want in my head so I 842 00:47:53,099 --> 00:47:50,349 put my hand up to kind of protect me 843 00:47:55,440 --> 00:47:53,109 brain anyway whoever it was who was 844 00:47:56,700 --> 00:47:55,450 talking stop talking and that could 845 00:48:08,579 --> 00:47:56,710 properly look rather than those like 846 00:48:10,680 --> 00:48:08,589 that and he's like good feeling when he 847 00:48:20,400 --> 00:48:10,690 was like going like Sasha knows I said 848 00:48:22,740 --> 00:48:20,410 look at me turn around so you know we 849 00:48:29,370 --> 00:48:22,750 went top we don't talk for years and 850 00:48:32,609 --> 00:48:29,380 then on someone went way you never you 851 00:48:34,920 --> 00:48:32,619 know you live alone say you don't 852 00:48:38,670 --> 00:48:34,930 once I think when she found that 853 00:49:01,079 --> 00:48:38,680 either if that's alive ya know sometimes 854 00:49:02,339 --> 00:49:01,089 we might not talk for Korea around me 855 00:49:05,940 --> 00:49:02,349 24/7 856 00:49:09,089 --> 00:49:05,950 you know I'm a Facebook ad or carry it 857 00:49:11,339 --> 00:49:09,099 around with me cuz I have a slide hey 858 00:49:14,250 --> 00:49:11,349 you know what I mean otherwise I'd go 859 00:49:15,660 --> 00:49:14,260 mental well people go oh my god I didn't 860 00:49:17,069 --> 00:49:15,670 know any all this about you how come I 861 00:49:20,069 --> 00:49:17,079 didn't know about this cuz I don't wear 862 00:49:22,620 --> 00:49:20,079 it like a costume yeah yeah that's a 863 00:49:25,500 --> 00:49:22,630 queued up it's my life it's what I've 864 00:49:29,309 --> 00:49:25,510 been through it's not who I am 865 00:49:31,230 --> 00:49:29,319 yeah exactly I got a lot of personas on 866 00:49:32,730 --> 00:49:31,240 Facebook you don't get to know about the 867 00:49:36,870 --> 00:49:32,740 real lives you don't get to know about 868 00:49:39,319 --> 00:49:36,880 any of them so like I'll get friend 869 00:49:43,319 --> 00:49:39,329 requests and I think that I 870 00:49:46,799 --> 00:49:43,329 after these shows I think that expecting 871 00:49:49,620 --> 00:49:46,809 me page you know me pages are full of 872 00:49:52,799 --> 00:49:49,630 full of paranormal stuff and it's not 873 00:49:56,579 --> 00:49:52,809 you know no Nagaina my face somewhere 874 00:49:58,620 --> 00:49:56,589 but the majority this is this on Archer 875 00:50:02,339 --> 00:49:58,630 now all these you know episodes that 876 00:50:04,829 --> 00:50:02,349 we've done it's the most ever ever in my 877 00:50:08,400 --> 00:50:04,839 life besides talking about it your 878 00:50:10,980 --> 00:50:08,410 personal way is it's what I've done you 879 00:50:13,589 --> 00:50:10,990 know what I mean I I beat ya be none of 880 00:50:15,260 --> 00:50:13,599 the shores but I've never got as far as 881 00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:15,270 what I have now 882 00:50:23,099 --> 00:50:19,690 to be done yeah now I'm repair gym full 883 00:50:28,440 --> 00:50:23,109 of paranormals and ets I'm sorry but 884 00:50:30,710 --> 00:50:28,450 it's not cuz I Who I am is on that page 885 00:50:36,599 --> 00:50:30,720 you know what I mean on my Facebook page 886 00:50:40,109 --> 00:50:36,609 you know yeah I use Facebook as a coping 887 00:50:43,260 --> 00:50:40,119 mechanism really well on it I am on it 888 00:50:44,390 --> 00:50:43,270 often I go through periods like yeah not 889 00:50:48,839 --> 00:50:44,400 on it 890 00:51:01,259 --> 00:50:57,120 Jobin in all aliens tomar videos now you 891 00:51:04,769 --> 00:51:01,269 know he's like I was just searching at 892 00:51:06,719 --> 00:51:04,779 one point talking I think we got you a 893 00:51:12,140 --> 00:51:06,729 period of where we just need to talk and 894 00:51:14,460 --> 00:51:12,150 talk and talk and talk and then people 895 00:51:16,650 --> 00:51:14,470 it's like right I need to hear from you 896 00:51:18,539 --> 00:51:16,660 I've heard from you oh my god you've me 897 00:51:21,120 --> 00:51:18,549 to talk to so-and-so you need to talk to 898 00:51:23,279 --> 00:51:21,130 service' we all need to get together we 899 00:51:27,509 --> 00:51:23,289 are you know that there's some people 900 00:51:30,289 --> 00:51:27,519 now and I'll see him there's that happen 901 00:51:33,390 --> 00:51:30,299 to them and then so it's like you two 902 00:51:35,579 --> 00:51:33,400 medicines [\h__\h] like you Bullock 903 00:51:37,079 --> 00:51:35,589 Kinsella I want to get Phil on with you 904 00:51:38,969 --> 00:51:37,089 I was going to do recording with him on 905 00:51:42,329 --> 00:51:38,979 something but I just felt so wiped out 906 00:51:47,819 --> 00:51:42,339 so I'll have them in knock it in a 907 00:51:50,099 --> 00:51:47,829 little bit you know but we so I've 908 00:51:53,249 --> 00:51:50,109 called it offers we will do it but I 909 00:51:54,650 --> 00:51:53,259 want to get all the people talking like 910 00:51:58,709 --> 00:51:54,660 worth talking now 911 00:52:00,479 --> 00:51:58,719 yeah Jen I want you to talk to parlor 912 00:52:02,370 --> 00:52:00,489 about this or you to talks feel about 913 00:52:04,349 --> 00:52:02,380 that I want you to start to feel about 914 00:52:07,799 --> 00:52:04,359 that so there's there's crossovers that 915 00:52:11,039 --> 00:52:07,809 I'm seeing do everybody and having none 916 00:52:14,430 --> 00:52:11,049 and no I'm feel very long but the rest 917 00:52:17,059 --> 00:52:14,440 I've known a long time so it's like when 918 00:52:21,749 --> 00:52:17,069 you know I get to know the whole story 919 00:52:23,910 --> 00:52:21,759 then when they is somebody else say and 920 00:52:29,279 --> 00:52:23,920 I thought he had a suit and the helmet 921 00:52:31,979 --> 00:52:29,289 elements like boom you know I think it's 922 00:52:34,430 --> 00:52:31,989 important without all the other noise of 923 00:52:36,930 --> 00:52:34,440 all the other people being involved in 924 00:52:38,489 --> 00:52:36,940 changing conversations as a kind of like 925 00:52:40,950 --> 00:52:38,499 unfolding on face but you can't really 926 00:52:44,969 --> 00:52:40,960 do it because someone I'm coming in to 927 00:52:48,509 --> 00:52:44,979 get right off cast so I feel like this 928 00:52:51,690 --> 00:52:48,519 is the only way a do it we can get it 929 00:52:53,219 --> 00:52:51,700 done and you know you knew but the 930 00:52:57,719 --> 00:52:53,229 others as well and I don't mean in like 931 00:53:01,300 --> 00:52:57,729 a miles Johnston Amash know he only of 932 00:53:04,590 --> 00:53:01,310 that kind of way this is a 933 00:53:09,630 --> 00:53:04,600 teas talkin top deputies and it's not 934 00:53:14,890 --> 00:53:12,490 sounds that we found ourselves in yeah 935 00:53:17,050 --> 00:53:14,900 the only the only thing that was you 936 00:53:19,360 --> 00:53:17,060 know that we aren't planting shells as 937 00:53:23,560 --> 00:53:19,370 such of it we've just done them in order 938 00:53:25,870 --> 00:53:23,570 the best where we can yes you know we 939 00:53:28,270 --> 00:53:25,880 want it to be authentic don't want it to 940 00:53:33,030 --> 00:53:28,280 be all no we 941 00:53:40,150 --> 00:53:33,040 it's just this is like raw meditate just 942 00:53:45,880 --> 00:53:40,160 as was our real life and not pretend not 943 00:53:48,250 --> 00:53:45,890 polished not nothing just nothing and 944 00:53:50,020 --> 00:53:48,260 just as it is because I'm nearly choked 945 00:53:56,880 --> 00:53:50,030 on my lemon tea only here but I managed 946 00:54:07,320 --> 00:54:00,610 think we're going to start talking about 947 00:54:11,260 --> 00:54:07,330 your experiences after this sure but 948 00:54:13,900 --> 00:54:11,270 what we want to do is get some of the 949 00:54:18,990 --> 00:54:13,910 pictures I've got you know what I've 950 00:54:23,320 --> 00:54:19,000 been through some ways yeah you know 951 00:54:25,600 --> 00:54:23,330 somewhere because it's alright I was 952 00:54:29,260 --> 00:54:25,610 talking about it and you're kind of 953 00:54:31,120 --> 00:54:29,270 getting so yes some idea but to actually 954 00:54:32,770 --> 00:54:31,130 show yeah you can't get in it was brain 955 00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:32,780 so we'd have to show you 956 00:54:43,420 --> 00:54:35,090 you know um pictures that have drawn and 957 00:54:48,250 --> 00:54:43,430 stuff like that yeah we might do a 958 00:54:49,920 --> 00:54:48,260 second edit of each original recording 959 00:54:54,340 --> 00:54:49,930 where Oh 960 00:54:56,290 --> 00:54:54,350 imagery in yeah yeah I'm a it the 961 00:54:59,770 --> 00:54:56,300 science yeah I know some other stuff 962 00:55:03,010 --> 00:54:59,780 that I will be saying yeah because I was 963 00:55:05,110 --> 00:55:03,020 you know had experiences and then found 964 00:55:12,270 --> 00:55:05,120 out years like this is a natural thing 965 00:55:16,200 --> 00:55:12,280 now you know but years after the fact 966 00:55:19,050 --> 00:55:16,210 I mean it's also when we're talking 967 00:55:21,390 --> 00:55:19,060 about as experiences that these also the 968 00:55:26,190 --> 00:55:21,400 aspects of its spirit coming in away 969 00:55:28,410 --> 00:55:26,200 because I believe it's all connected but 970 00:55:30,720 --> 00:55:28,420 we have to talk about that as well so 971 00:55:32,850 --> 00:55:30,730 it's not all going to be abductions and 972 00:55:40,590 --> 00:55:32,860 you know we've got it up all things 973 00:55:47,270 --> 00:55:40,600 paranormal I really do I'm interested I 974 00:55:56,520 --> 00:55:51,680 stuff that we've been to you know and 975 00:56:00,000 --> 00:55:56,530 all of us have paranormal has just been 976 00:56:01,950 --> 00:56:00,010 so bizarre yeah oh you need to write a 977 00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:01,960 book you need to write books okay you 978 00:56:09,660 --> 00:56:07,330 won't believe it to stage now what I 979 00:56:16,890 --> 00:56:09,670 don't care whether believe it or not I'm 980 00:56:19,530 --> 00:56:16,900 not a year so change anybody's mind you 981 00:56:22,830 --> 00:56:19,540 know to prove oh because I can't prove 982 00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:22,840 it um but I'm just to get my side of the 983 00:56:31,320 --> 00:56:28,930 story out to anybody else and see if 984 00:56:34,860 --> 00:56:31,330 they can make more of it in the 985 00:56:37,230 --> 00:56:34,870 scientific way we could because of our 986 00:56:38,700 --> 00:56:37,240 knowledge base isn't you know like that 987 00:56:42,750 --> 00:56:38,710 blue flashing light thing that might 988 00:56:45,450 --> 00:56:42,760 mean something to somebody small or a 989 00:56:48,030 --> 00:56:45,460 big it's the somebody out there who 990 00:56:51,120 --> 00:56:48,040 thought that things that we say openly 991 00:56:54,120 --> 00:56:51,130 be triggers for that oh I thought that 992 00:56:57,000 --> 00:56:54,130 and i've got that yeah yeah i hope i 993 00:56:59,700 --> 00:56:57,010 mean we can't guarantee that he's gonna 994 00:57:03,720 --> 00:56:59,710 spread that wide and far you know in her 995 00:57:05,670 --> 00:57:03,730 at least some someone somewhere you've 996 00:57:07,140 --> 00:57:05,680 got something relatable it's got some 997 00:57:09,870 --> 00:57:07,150 information that would make something 998 00:57:13,110 --> 00:57:09,880 that we've said make more sense yeah 999 00:57:15,840 --> 00:57:13,120 EMU's because we can't say there's no 1000 00:57:19,680 --> 00:57:15,850 definitive we can just talk in 1001 00:57:24,540 --> 00:57:19,690 probabilities and possibilities and you 1002 00:57:26,660 --> 00:57:24,550 know we can't know the actuality but we 1003 00:57:32,570 --> 00:57:26,670 might be able to figure 1004 00:57:39,840 --> 00:57:32,580 something yeah we just want to try 1005 00:57:44,850 --> 00:57:39,850 younger answers me saying have the eyes 1006 00:57:50,100 --> 00:57:44,860 work is then telling me that but is that 1007 00:57:53,220 --> 00:57:50,110 deception or is a I cannot personally 1008 00:57:56,070 --> 00:57:53,230 say that in my own brain I could not 1009 00:58:01,260 --> 00:57:56,080 make that up either so there's some 1010 00:58:08,250 --> 00:58:01,270 truth to it but is it under percent you 1011 00:58:15,180 --> 00:58:08,260 know no no the nature of it we can 1012 00:58:21,450 --> 00:58:15,190 suspect the other if somebody said what 1013 00:58:24,450 --> 00:58:21,460 is it no I I'm not gonna you know I mean 1014 00:58:28,740 --> 00:58:24,460 I could assume but I can say yeah it's 1015 00:58:30,720 --> 00:58:28,750 definitely that no I'm sorry oh yeah the 1016 00:58:33,690 --> 00:58:30,730 physical every girl you can touch them 1017 00:58:34,620 --> 00:58:33,700 they can touch here physical so there's 1018 00:58:36,240 --> 00:58:34,630 nothing spirit 1019 00:58:38,130 --> 00:58:36,250 alright so people building belief 1020 00:58:39,810 --> 00:58:38,140 systems around it's I believe in the 1021 00:58:44,570 --> 00:58:39,820 belief system around the dentist or 1022 00:58:47,360 --> 00:58:44,580 doctor apologist yeah you know I mean 1023 00:58:52,350 --> 00:58:47,370 it's a physical thing they are 1024 00:58:57,620 --> 00:58:52,360 physically real and did not drink it's 1025 00:59:01,050 --> 00:58:59,250 it's just dreams 1026 00:59:03,270 --> 00:59:01,060 if James traumatized people like this 1027 00:59:07,230 --> 00:59:03,280 science is woefully behind in the study 1028 00:59:09,840 --> 00:59:07,240 of this damaging condition that ruins my 1029 00:59:13,590 --> 00:59:09,850 eyes just cuz I don't dream I don't 1030 00:59:17,010 --> 00:59:13,600 believe it you cannot let as the end of 1031 00:59:18,960 --> 00:59:17,020 your name doctor oh you can have these 1032 00:59:22,350 --> 00:59:18,970 magnificent where is it under your name 1033 00:59:24,840 --> 00:59:22,360 you can look academia you can have all 1034 00:59:29,310 --> 00:59:24,850 this [\h__\h] going on in your life but 1035 00:59:31,520 --> 00:59:29,320 with the real scientists oz because 1036 00:59:34,040 --> 00:59:31,530 we're actually [\h__\h] going through it 1037 00:59:39,750 --> 00:59:34,050 they're walking living breathing 1038 00:59:44,370 --> 00:59:42,660 it's off there's no room for us because 1039 00:59:46,410 --> 00:59:44,380 we're upset about it there's no room for 1040 00:59:48,240 --> 00:59:46,420 us because we're angry oh my god no 1041 00:59:49,890 --> 00:59:48,250 negative go away we don't like your 1042 00:59:50,640 --> 00:59:49,900 negativity don't talk to her she's so 1043 00:59:54,210 --> 00:59:50,650 negative 1044 01:00:01,830 --> 00:59:54,220 she's a hostile abductee [\h__\h] right 1045 01:00:05,400 --> 01:00:01,840 yeah my life my life you know my 1046 01:00:07,680 --> 01:00:05,410 relationships with people depends on the 1047 01:00:11,099 --> 01:00:07,690 level of PTSD that I'm going through at 1048 01:00:17,190 --> 01:00:11,109 any point in time and how well I'm 1049 01:00:19,770 --> 01:00:17,200 managing myself okay it's telling me 1050 01:00:21,359 --> 01:00:19,780 that I have to it's just because you're 1051 01:00:23,460 --> 01:00:21,369 so negative is because you're negative 1052 01:00:26,970 --> 01:00:23,470 it's happening to you know I'm wrong 1053 01:00:33,590 --> 01:00:26,980 like this I'm hurt I'm damaged I've been 1054 01:00:38,609 --> 01:00:36,930 yeah not tell me how I can and can't 1055 01:00:44,580 --> 01:00:38,619 feel about it don't tell me I can't be 1056 01:00:46,590 --> 01:00:44,590 angry about it and everyone I'll check 1057 01:00:49,500 --> 01:00:46,600 it different I got saying that you're 1058 01:00:54,090 --> 01:00:49,510 gonna bet you know everyone's gonna be 1059 01:00:56,250 --> 01:00:54,100 all figuring that but then you know 1060 01:00:59,250 --> 01:00:56,260 everyone everyone I'm a bit stronger 1061 01:01:01,680 --> 01:00:59,260 than you like that you know what I mean 1062 01:01:04,890 --> 01:01:01,690 but you do it I said that I ants off the 1063 01:01:14,520 --> 01:01:04,900 doll that trauma you know I've kind of 1064 01:01:18,120 --> 01:01:14,530 looked to control but not you know to 1065 01:01:19,859 --> 01:01:18,130 contain it all and then have a normal 1066 01:01:21,780 --> 01:01:19,869 life and be normal and then people have 1067 01:01:23,849 --> 01:01:21,790 expectations of you about how you should 1068 01:01:26,520 --> 01:01:23,859 and shouldn't be ever no you shouldn't 1069 01:01:29,730 --> 01:01:26,530 said tell me how I come and can't talk 1070 01:01:32,460 --> 01:01:29,740 about my promise 1071 01:01:34,410 --> 01:01:32,470 it's a [\h__\h] privilege actually I'm 1072 01:01:36,750 --> 01:01:34,420 even telling you don't tell me how to 1073 01:01:44,060 --> 01:01:36,760 tell you oh I'm sorry am i upsetting 1074 01:01:48,250 --> 01:01:44,070 your news feed my life this is my actual 1075 01:01:53,590 --> 01:01:51,100 want to destroy me and you so we a 1076 01:01:55,660 --> 01:01:53,600 malfunction that much that we can't talk 1077 01:01:57,850 --> 01:01:55,670 and then they can carry on with their 1078 01:02:00,490 --> 01:01:57,860 fakery because when you get in your 1079 01:02:02,410 --> 01:02:00,500 chamber and a fake Gucci bag next to 1080 01:02:06,850 --> 01:02:02,420 each other you can tell which is the 1081 01:02:08,740 --> 01:02:06,860 real one which is the [\h__\h] yeah yeah you 1082 01:02:12,790 --> 01:02:08,750 know I'll be sanitized I should have the 1083 01:02:16,090 --> 01:02:12,800 same the UFO community is censored it's 1084 01:02:18,220 --> 01:02:16,100 ruled by an elite group it would 1085 01:02:20,560 --> 01:02:18,230 probably Human Centipede and they just 1086 01:02:22,300 --> 01:02:20,570 feed each other each other's [\h__\h] and 1087 01:02:24,070 --> 01:02:22,310 then whatever spews out of the other end 1088 01:02:40,740 --> 01:02:24,080 we're supposed to be grateful for and 1089 01:02:51,850 --> 01:02:43,720 telling us how we can and can't be you 1090 01:02:53,440 --> 01:02:51,860 know our information is selling it on I 1091 01:02:55,990 --> 01:02:53,450 was shut up 1092 01:02:58,120 --> 01:02:56,000 because I my name on one okay are young 1093 01:03:00,730 --> 01:02:58,130 and this helping you make that you can 1094 01:03:03,490 --> 01:03:00,740 swear it met you can [\h__\h] at my 1095 01:03:05,650 --> 01:03:03,500 facebook do what the [\h__\h] you like but 1096 01:03:08,500 --> 01:03:05,660 I'm still standing and I'll [\h__\h] stay 1097 01:03:12,610 --> 01:03:08,510 here yeah and I will speak as much as I 1098 01:03:14,350 --> 01:03:12,620 want about my life a little opaque all 1099 01:03:18,280 --> 01:03:14,360 trauma all good 1100 01:03:20,860 --> 01:03:18,290 I ain't stopping for nobody normally I 1101 01:03:25,330 --> 01:03:20,870 will not let everything that I have been 1102 01:03:26,320 --> 01:03:25,340 through be for nothing and and just let 1103 01:03:28,360 --> 01:03:26,330 it go to waste 1104 01:03:31,150 --> 01:03:28,370 how did you manage to cope well actually 1105 01:03:33,370 --> 01:03:31,160 it was micromanagement but these are the 1106 01:03:35,710 --> 01:03:33,380 little tiny tools that I've used to stop 1107 01:03:37,390 --> 01:03:35,720 myself from going completely insane you 1108 01:03:38,920 --> 01:03:37,400 know I've had all the therapies throw 1109 01:03:41,830 --> 01:03:38,930 myself in front of all the doctors I 1110 01:03:43,360 --> 01:03:41,840 wish I was a crazy person because then 1111 01:03:45,100 --> 01:03:43,370 they would be able to treat me and give 1112 01:03:46,990 --> 01:03:45,110 me some drugs and tell me how to live 1113 01:03:49,300 --> 01:03:47,000 and everything will be fine but I've 1114 01:03:51,490 --> 01:03:49,310 thrown myself and my last therapy said 1115 01:03:52,780 --> 01:03:51,500 to me Sasha there's no cure for sanity 1116 01:04:01,630 --> 01:03:52,790 you're going to have to learn to live in 1117 01:04:03,630 --> 01:04:01,640 your own skin yeah anybody I'm mad 1118 01:04:06,160 --> 01:04:03,640 but it's the only place I've got to hide 1119 01:04:10,299 --> 01:04:06,170 to six new hiding places 1120 01:04:14,019 --> 01:04:10,309 I don't know and I'm to almost be just 1121 01:04:16,839 --> 01:04:14,029 crazy yeah my only there's my only 1122 01:04:21,640 --> 01:04:16,849 safety zones is hiding behind something 1123 01:04:24,579 --> 01:04:21,650 I just I don't know my brain goes you 1124 01:04:35,920 --> 01:04:24,589 don't actually know that Sasha the 1125 01:04:38,499 --> 01:04:35,930 intellectual thing body goes you didn't 1126 01:04:43,180 --> 01:04:38,509 see an alien so you don't actually know 1127 01:04:46,440 --> 01:04:43,190 for part you know I'm trying to stop 1128 01:04:54,190 --> 01:04:46,450 doing that to myself I want to try and 1129 01:04:56,140 --> 01:04:54,200 deliver there is a context if I didn't 1130 01:04:57,729 --> 01:04:56,150 go to work in the morning which at the 1131 01:05:02,229 --> 01:04:57,739 moment I can't work because of what 1132 01:05:05,470 --> 01:05:02,239 locked me down sheets going on but we're 1133 01:05:08,890 --> 01:05:05,480 up served me work getting up for work 1134 01:05:11,160 --> 01:05:08,900 and having a not switch off because I 1135 01:05:16,269 --> 01:05:11,170 had to go into that work environment 1136 01:05:19,299 --> 01:05:16,279 that is what served me and if you know 1137 01:05:22,499 --> 01:05:19,309 and now because I learn to control it 1138 01:05:25,210 --> 01:05:22,509 off at you yes by going forward and by 1139 01:05:27,099 --> 01:05:25,220 switching off right if I'm watching 1140 01:05:28,749 --> 01:05:27,109 YouTube I'm not watching all these 1141 01:05:31,089 --> 01:05:28,759 sci-fi [\h__\h] you know what I mean I'm 1142 01:05:33,729 --> 01:05:31,099 watching of the things you know what I 1143 01:05:36,220 --> 01:05:33,739 mean there's nothing I do with it and 1144 01:05:38,620 --> 01:05:36,230 that say of me as well so it's learning 1145 01:05:40,900 --> 01:05:38,630 to control get you know control switch 1146 01:05:45,519 --> 01:05:40,910 that bit off and put that bit on you 1147 01:05:47,109 --> 01:05:45,529 know what I mean yeah everyone controls 1148 01:05:48,819 --> 01:05:47,119 it different some people still can't 1149 01:05:51,489 --> 01:05:48,829 control it because they're going through 1150 01:05:55,390 --> 01:05:51,499 what we went through a year ago 1151 01:05:58,029 --> 01:05:55,400 seven years ago you know and and you 1152 01:06:01,539 --> 01:05:58,039 know there are we all get to that stage 1153 01:06:02,229 --> 01:06:01,549 we've been through it but we had come 1154 01:06:04,779 --> 01:06:02,239 out of it 1155 01:06:08,640 --> 01:06:04,789 we've just learned it control it that 1156 01:06:13,599 --> 01:06:10,599 whereas before we weren't we weren't 1157 01:06:15,730 --> 01:06:13,609 being able to do they wanted to get out 1158 01:06:19,000 --> 01:06:15,740 there but it's 1159 01:06:20,650 --> 01:06:19,010 being trying to make sense of it I mean 1160 01:06:23,770 --> 01:06:20,660 we've got so many conversations I mean 1161 01:06:26,020 --> 01:06:23,780 the minute we get together it's all be 1162 01:06:28,480 --> 01:06:26,030 platinum going over it or going over and 1163 01:06:30,850 --> 01:06:28,490 go oh well maybe well we can take this 1164 01:06:33,880 --> 01:06:30,860 away from that that they know about 1165 01:06:36,640 --> 01:06:33,890 events ahead of time and little tiny 1166 01:06:40,180 --> 01:06:36,650 things like this give us some sort of 1167 01:06:42,670 --> 01:06:40,190 clues but we re-examine and we examine 1168 01:06:45,370 --> 01:06:42,680 and we examine our experiences together 1169 01:06:47,290 --> 01:06:45,380 her and then it's like make me a little 1170 01:06:50,980 --> 01:06:47,300 realizations about things 1171 01:06:53,200 --> 01:06:50,990 No thank you I went to bed on oxide and 1172 01:06:57,310 --> 01:06:53,210 then woke up on that side up how did 1173 01:07:02,620 --> 01:06:57,320 that happen you know but things by 1174 01:07:06,280 --> 01:07:02,630 myself you need somebody to bounce off I 1175 01:07:13,870 --> 01:07:06,290 think sometime soon you know okay get it 1176 01:07:26,380 --> 01:07:13,880 all out yes I love to start my [\h__\h] in